a simple girl
a child of God
xplore her world in a myriad of colours
her inside world
of true reality...
Saturday, April 01, 2006
12:51 AM
succky succky. somehow dere's an illusion da world is becoming colder. pretty much colder. and i just want to run. run away from the coldness.
if everything was wrong, den make it right. i wish i could turn back time, rewrite some chapters of mah life. and be not who i am now. a different me. a different girl wif a different character. maybe i would prefer dat very much now. sighs.
living for the sake of living a life. dat's da feeling i get nowadays. pretty sucky right.. dunno wad's wif me either. no longer da old me, no longer whom i tot i am. schizophenia or wadever u call it. i'm not suffering from dat of cos, but it feels like it. it's deadly and it's draining me. bit by bit. doesn't help when people don't care. sick of everything. really. oh no, is tis a form of depression. sighs. really simple things can make me happy. yet complicated things make me sad. can life be just a little simpler. i hate the complexities of adult life. realy. i wish dere was tis realm whereby u can dwell in childhood innocence and simple sweetness of life.
and i am freaking lost. lost somewhere out there. cant seem to find/recollect the pieces tgt. i need to mend the pieces back. but how? troubled mind troubled soul. and so wad's da root of the problem? i have no idea. which is why, i would very much preferred to go back to da past, and rewrite mah life, in a different way. different from now. a better life. a more meaningful life. a more responsible me. a more happie me. :) will dat ever be possible...
there is no turning back. i guess. prob a mistake since ages ago. i dunno how long, could be 1 year, could be 5 years.. could be 10 years. now i just need to know. da reason to live. God. dat's mah daddy lord for me. never giving me up even in times like tis, when i am down down down sabath time soon. :)
soMedAy we'Ll kNow..iF LoVe cAn mOve a mOuNtAin...*
daBELOVEDchild
sherdinojuan*
20*
nus*
child of God*
hopeless romantic*
choco addict*
vainypot*
loves sweet lil things*
jack of all sports, but master of none*
laughs and giggles incessantly*
mahWISHES
To enjoy mah Abba's Love forevermore
continous spiritual growth in ABBA
on da dean's list GRACE solely :)
ipod nano wif mah name :)
da super mini roxy tote
korea trip!
mahWANTS
Creative Zen V Plus Mp3 player
Cool shades
Nokia N73!
BeBe's white angelic jacket
RALPH perfume
Roxy Boardshorts
Roxy White Cap
New Hot Bikini!
mahLURVES
God
chocs
sweet lil things
music
happie moments wif mah dearies
meeting mah old frens
bitching wif mah dearies
short afternoon talks at coffeehouses
