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Saturday, October 22, 2005
6:17 PM
yeshh.. i am home fer da wkend! finally* and mah desktop has revived. miraculously. which is good news. can blast da speakers and need not use mah lappie without the mousey. hee* happie happie. staying in hall seems to make me fall sick every now and then. i wonder is it mah body's prob or issit da bad air dat is in the hall. or perhaps i just can't take care of mahself. am pigging out as usual. -geez- but anyway, am glad to be home!
alrite, this post shall be a light-hearted one. amidst all the sad and troubled posts earlier on. i decided that nothing in life should be deterring one from doing anything. and i shall not dwell in the past but live the present. looking forward to church tml*
i know alot of people are treating me very nicely and for that i am really grateful and thankful. but it is just thanks and more thanks and nothing else beyond that border. i guess i couldn't overcome mah own emotional barrier as of yet. sorrie. to those dat i disappoint. actually, only the 2 of you. you know who u are n i won't mention names. i'm really sorrie. forgive me. your sincerity really touches me and i know dat ur are really nice people. and deserve more than wad i can offer for ur. look for better gals alrite. i'm not worth the wait. and i know it's painful to be waiting for somebody. so dun wait for me. if chance and time permits, we shall see. but dun let ur life be stagnant at that point just because of me. please. i hope ur understand. and though i think only one of you will be reading this, i still have to say, ur care and concerns really warms mah heart. and i will never regret having ur as mah frens. can we be frens forever? i really hope so. all i can offer ur now is apologies and more apologies. trust me, find better ones out there in the field. they're all ard. i'm not worthy of the wait. dun waste ur time on me. for as of now, i can't accept any of ur love, for i mahself am in a dilemma. but i will still treasure ur as mah frens. i will. i promise. :) and i am really thankful for ur being there for me when i am feeling down and out, and always there to listen to me and always offering to bring me out late at night when i complain i'm hungry or bored though mah hall is like thousands of miles away from ur. realli appreciate da lil actions. =) i hope mah decision won't destroy the frenships we have built up over time. both of u are mah frens, and i really treasure this frenship. really. i hope i din put it in a harsh way across, if i did, i'm sorrie. i still love ur, as frens. :)
it's a lil contradictory on wad i say n wad i do. in fact, i know best wad i am supposed to do. yet, i swear it's easier said than done. but i know, i will do it. and if i can, so can ur. let's wait no more. move on people, move on. time will never wait for us. we gotta move on or we will be thrown behind time. sometimes, it just daunts on me so much that loved ones ard us should be cherished, because you never know wad happens in a split second. treasure ur loved ones people. love people whom u care for. don't let pride and attitude get into the way. show the people you love u care for them. wait no more. time is precious. it ticks away without u knowing it.
soMedAy we'Ll kNow..iF LoVe cAn mOve a mOuNtAin...*
daBELOVEDchild
sherdinojuan*
20*
nus*
child of God*
hopeless romantic*
choco addict*
vainypot*
loves sweet lil things*
jack of all sports, but master of none*
laughs and giggles incessantly*
mahWISHES
To enjoy mah Abba's Love forevermore
continous spiritual growth in ABBA
on da dean's list GRACE solely :)
ipod nano wif mah name :)
da super mini roxy tote
korea trip!
mahWANTS
Creative Zen V Plus Mp3 player
Cool shades
Nokia N73!
BeBe's white angelic jacket
RALPH perfume
Roxy Boardshorts
Roxy White Cap
New Hot Bikini!
mahLURVES
God
chocs
sweet lil things
music
happie moments wif mah dearies
meeting mah old frens
bitching wif mah dearies
short afternoon talks at coffeehouses
