alot of things happened..sch stuff has affected me quite a lot..feeling quite miserable almost everyday..but all i can do..is to endure it all.. endure everthing within me.. i din wan to say out..for nothing will help...it's a matter of how i wan to help solve the prob.. but it seems unsolvable..from long ago..the prob has been there...

i wanted someone to share wif me my probs... but at the same time i din wan to trouble anyone wif my probs..tis is a selfish tot..maybe to some of u.. but i fear of troubling u pple esp u wif my stuff..cos i tink u oreadi stress enuff..

for the whole week..my life's a mess.. dragged myself to sch everyday. forced myself to listen in sch..forced myself to do tutorials..but my mind n heart inside reali there... i felt...helpless..

yest was the limit.. had a tok wif some of some frens abt the probs we're facing in sch.. but nothing seems to solve the prob.. n yet..at nite.. the last straw came when i broke up wif him.. my mind jus couldn't tink..couldn't function.. i was realli sad.. driven to my ends oreadi. sch stuff is getting me down.. relationship din help..instead it worsened the situation.. when i typed the word break up i teared.. i din wan to anyway..but the best solution has to be it. i can't tink of anything else..the oreadi troubled mind of mine din wan to tink of anything..it couldn't tink of anything..all it wanted me to do..was to end it all...

today was one of my most down day..i shopped..alot...toked..alot..laughed alot...but i stil feel the sadness within me..the many probs i'm facing.. how much i wanted to say it all out.. but yet at the same time....

m i dat hard to understand anyway.....? my good frens i'm sure u all will be reading tis..ur understand me.. m i realli dat hard to understand.... maybe i'm...i dunno.. i feel like crying again..i'm tearing as i'm typing all these.. i'm an emotional person i've to admit.. i cry..but not in front of pple..i dun wan dem to worrie.. but i cry to myself.. to relieve me of all the pain.. but in the end.. i dunno wat i realli wan. maybe...it's all but my fault.. everything is my fault..the sch prob i shan't mention..but i guess i can't solve it alone.. my relationship prob..i'm realli bad at it..i feel guilty towards him..i hadn't been nice.. he was nice. but he'll nv understand how i feel i guess...he nv will..

not wanting to tink of anything else..hopefully everything goes alrite...soon...if not..i can't hang on anymore....pple tinks i'm optimistic.. actualli i tink i oreadi am...i'm able to go shopping in tis kinda mood.. i try to tink positive..but deep down inside me..i'm feeling real sad... haiz...